be like the squirrel, girl.

"...if that squirrel can take care of himself with a harsh winter coming on, so can I. Once I broke my problems into small pieces, I was able to carry them just like those acorns-one at a time." - Little Acorns by The White Stripes



And that's the way I handle my life at the moment. I should be pissed off about alot of things right now (or so I've been told by several people), but why bother? Being angry doesn't change anything-it just makes your blood boil and your head hurt. There's nothing you can do about most things, anyway, especially shit from the past. I used to thrive on anger-it fueled everything I ever did, not to mention it made other people mad at me, even to the point of sending them
away crying. Some of it was caused by my depression, but most of it was just being young and stupid. So I began taking Prozac and got older. What a difference. I'm lucky I'm still alive to notice the change, actually. I think if I had gone any longer without admitting to myself that I needed help (better living through chemistry), I'd be ashes in an urn by now. Just had to get that out.

Now I'm thinking that maybe it's ok that I don't go on my European vacation. It's almost $200 to get a new windshield, I just got my $150 utility bill (thanks to gas heat), I have $40 in my checking account and I still haven't gone to the grocery store. Payday isn't until the 15th. I guess I'll eat sandwiches and pretzels everyday til then. Mom gave me some leftovers to last a couple of days. I still have a 6 pack of beer in the fridge- I don't even like beer. Oh, and my eye doctor appointment tomorrow, along with a new pair of glasses. Yeah, I've pretty much shot my wad. Good thing I have insurance. The copayments just about equal the total in my checking account. Such is life.

"The problems at hand are lighter than at heart...Be like the squirrel, girl, be like the squirrel."